Starting to Lose It

Through all of the ordeals of the past couple of weeks (I never did post about Jackson's 102-103 fever that lasted from Christmas Eve until the day we left Indy the first time), I have managed to keep sane and up beat.

I have had tremendous support from immediate family, extended family, my blogger family, and a few close friends. Jackson has truly been a good patient boy. But I am about to lose it, so I am going to vent my little list to you as to why and hopefully I can plug on:

• Jackson's dad was only able to keep him for a couple of hours Wednesday AM before we headed back to Indy because he had tennis Tuesday night (that he scheduled AFTER he know he could have him that night).
• Monday on our way home, Jackson REALLY wanted to spend the night with John. He really missed him. John did take him for 1.5 hours but brought him home by 7:15 because he was going to watch the football game. Priorities.
• My doc's office finally (after 2.5 weeks) found the results to my CT scan, said that it was all clear and, YEAH, they were proud that I did not have kidney stones, and they will mail me a copy of the report. Well, I went in for pain in my lower left back. He had a theory that I had kidney stones, my $1k test proved his theory wrong and they are proud?! AND I had told him that MY theory was that the pain is related to my endometriosis, but that my OB would not see me until the primary care docs had ruled the rest out, and they made me wait for 2.5 weeks to get me the report. HUMMM.
• AND when I did actually receive said report, it did say that I did not have kidney stones, but did say that I had some unexplained thickening and extra fluid around my heart. Humm. That report had gone in my file on the shelf. When I brought it to the attention to my REAL primary care doc, she said she wanted an Echo and other follow up tests to see what was going on.
• I managed to keep up with emails, the mail projects, and crisis management while at my parents' and at the hospital. I only called the president of our company once to verify that I was fixing a huge mistake that was about to be made, and fielded numerous calls from the staff while on the road.
• I was greeted this morning to a pointedly worded email with a laundry list of major projects from my "friend" our president, she wanted done by today, this Friday and next Friday. Never mind that most were not mine, and that several I was waiting on her for.
• When I sent out a text to see if my group of "friends" wanted to join me for wings and a beer last night, all but one person sent me an "I don't want wings; don't feel like goin' out; I need to tan for my Mexico trip" type of emails. I did get my wings and my beer with one friend who said yes and another who happened to call to make sure I was okay.

For crying out loud. My mom just about died. 90% fatality rate (not surviving to or thru surgery) for what she had. I have had to be the upbeat take care of everything girl. I washed her hair, changed her clothes, did all of the laundry, and cooked food for a week. It has been a rough week. Can't you (not you reading this) cut me a little slack, have a beer, be supportive, take care of your child??!! Happy @## New Year.

So there. Thanks for the vent. I feel better. On to Catholic prayer group tonight.

(And Lisa, thanks for calling, but if I would have answered the phone then, I would have cried, and I don't need that, today, but I appreciate it, and may cry later anyway.)